Hi,

Welcome to my world! I am Eline Mar and I am really glad that you are reading this. With this blog I create a space to share my life, my passions, my thoughts and my visions with the world. Furthermore I would like to inspire you for a more conscious, creative and healthier living.

Here you can find my story, healthy food recipes, some of my poems and the stories of normal people, who inspire me. I just write about my life and everything that really matters to me. I hope you enjoy it too!

 

My Story

My health and spiritual journey began after I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis back in 2008. I was 26, almost done with my math studies, working on my master’s degree.

At this period of my life, I was really short of money and time, but however I was successful with my studies and I was preparing for my career. I had a full and exciting social life, a lot of friends, I was young, healthy, on the verge of completing my master’s thesis. By normal standards I had it all. There was so much waiting for me…

However, I was by that time not sure that I wanted it. After achieving so much, I realized I was not happy. I was struggling internally with social conventions. And somehow afraid of the future.

One day I had a harmless accident with my bicycle and went to a doctor because of a small wound on my ankle. He told me that I need a tetanus vaccination.

“Why not? It’s standard.” – I thought. My intuition told me not to do it. It was this gut feeling that you ignore and then regret it. Immediately after the tetanus injection I had a black out for some minutes. The next day I had numbness in my toes and in my fingers. I felt that something was seriously wrong with my health. After two weeks I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. I had heard about this disease but I didn’t know what it meant. My future collapsed in front of me.

After that I had a hard time coming to terms with the fact I had actually agreed to this vaccination despite my gut feeling. I couldn’t accept the situation, couldn’t accept the diagnosis and couldn’t believe what was happening to me.

At that time my father was diagnosed with cancer.

I locked myself away from everyone and fell into depression. This was the time when I started to write poems. I devoted myself to the creative process. The writing together with my boyfriend, who was there for me, supporting me in everything I was doing and loving me for who I was, were the things that kept me alive.

I thought for a very long time because of my condition that I was somehow a second rate person, not good enough and worthless. I was struggling so much. I thought that I had to compete with other people that were healthy and it was very stressful, especially in the workplace.

And then suddenly I realized that I was good enough exactly the way I was. That I was really worth my existence. I had so much to offer, had made a tremendous transformation and deserved to live a full and happy life. I felt that this disability was actually a blessing. It was a great opportunity to grow, to become a better person and to see the world from a different point of view. So, I took the decision to be grateful, to embrace my disability and despite this become the best version of myself. No more comparing myself to others. Just to be myself and love me for the person who I was. And this gave me the strength to follow my heart and do things I really enjoy.

It has been nine years since I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. And I need to write about it – what has happened to me, how I live my life, what I believe in and what I aim to create.

Having this disease has changed not only my life and my future plans, but totally changed me as a person. It took from me and in doing so, gave me so much.

I am now a certified nutritionist, a health and spiritual “junkie” and feel I want to share my story and hopefully help to inspire other people who are dealing with health issues and want to overcome them.

I want to remind them anything and everything is possible, not to give up, there is light after the darkness.

I still have MS, but I have learned to accept it as part of me and my life. Of course, I have sometimes these moments full of angst about the unknown future, seeing myself in the wheelchair. But it is absolutely normal and they remind me that I should live in the now moment,

However, I have managed to transform the MS into a new positive way of living, eating and thinking.

The first thing I did after the diagnosis was to change my diet – I have tried almost everything in these years – vegetarian diet with fish, ayurvedic diet, vegan, raw vegan. Now I eat mostly plant-based food containing a lot of raw foods. I really enjoy making a nourishing and beautiful meal for me and my loved ones. And I started documenting my creations in the kitchen. You can find some of my recipes on the blog.

Doing yoga helps me to stay conscious and in a good shape. If I am stressed, I do yoga Nidra (the yogic sleep) and it brings me to my inner piece.

I continuously revise my thoughts. When I catch myself dwelling on negative thoughts, I change the pattern in a constructive way. At the beginning it was difficult, but it is worth spending time on it. You start shining your light and miracles begin to happen. Doors open and the right people enter your life.

What helps me most, is living my life the way I want to live it. I love travelling and take every opportunity to visit a country I have never been to. Experiencing new cultures and visiting new places brings joy into my life. I connect with people all over the world and I leave a piece of my heart there. It is sometimes really challenging to tavel, because I am not vigorous any more and I can not walk a lot, I constantly need a toilet, etc. But if there is a wish, there is a way…

This new approach to life has given me an inner strength and resolve to keep moving forward that I couldn’t imagine possible.

I would like to take you on this journey with me.

Now I am starting my blog and I believe that I have a message for all of you that want to heal and live a life with purpose. Changing the world for the better begins by changing ourselves!

Let’s make it together!